stuff about things

guess I’m gonna

Diana — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 09:19:18 +0000

twitter now. My attention span’s way too short for me to write a whole essay like I did the last few times. That took major effort. Plus I can update through my phone, which is definitely a plus. SEE YUH

d-9

Diana — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 10:52:46 +0000

Saw D-9 today, was pretty sick. Sick in the way that it was amazingly awesome. This sci-fi movie has forever captured my heart. The thing I love most about it is that the aliens in the movie aren’t the very stereotypical-amazingly-civilized-bunch who also happen to be a billion times more enlightened and smarter than humans, and made people realize that aliens can be bad too. I also really loved the action, the fighting scene at the end was pretty awesome, when that one robot/gundam HAHA type thing activated and blasted like 50 humans.

My friend is being super emo tonight and it’s really not helping that he’s not telling me what exactly is bothering him. It’s been like three hours since he started acting emo. Sigh. Another thing, I’m not even tired right now (WTF) and it’s almost four in the morning, PLUS the fact that I only had three hours of sleep last night (ugh). I am never going to fix my jet lag and I’m just gonna spend the rest of my life being nocturnal in this timezone haha.

I’ve been watching a lot of Youtube videos by these crazy “Youtube celebrities” and I couldn’t help but wish I had a personality as amazing/funny/cool/smart as them . I was thinking about making a vlog, but then I’d probably end up feeling awkward ’cause I’m talking to a camera, and then be boring… cause I’m ultra boring when I’m not being myself. A wave of sleepiness just hit me. I think I’m gonna go to bed.. downstairs in the garage hehehe cause it’s more comfortable there and less hot.

Edit: My friend said my blog is probably really interesting for today, I guess because it was eventful and he really put the cherry on top of it by making me worry about him for 4 hours. So I am going to list out the events that happened today… I guess.

So the day started out by me getting a wake up call from my friend telling me to wake up at 10 am so I can get ready to head out for badminton. With a banana and a cup of soy milk in my stomach, I headed out about… 11 am. I went to take the bus but it mother freaking rerouted and didn’t stop at the place I wanted it to so I ended up having to deposit my money somewhere else. Not that it was a big deal, either place probably would have just taken as long as the other… I don’t know why I’m even upset about it. LOL. Sooo. I went for badminton and stuff at 12 and played for like freaking 20 min before I decided to sit down and sleep. AHHA So I ended up sleeping through like 1 pm – 3 pm while my friend played badminton with other random people at the courts we went to. After sleeping playing badminton, we left the place at around 3.20 pm and I headed for T&T to drop off my resume and my friend went home, probably to play games or something. Or study ’cause he’s nerdy like that. haha . My friend who works there greeted me (cause he was waiting for me) while I was speaking to some clerks or whatever they’re called at the customer service counter to ask to speak to the manager/drop off my resume. Turns out she wasn’t even there at the time so I filled out this other application form, gave it back to them along with my resume and left with Isaac to go to his house and play some Ninja Gaiden and Killzone2… both REALLY FREAKING HARD GAMES. Except Killzone doesnt rape you as quick and rough as NG does. But anyway… We sorta lost track of the time and played til like 5.50 pm and realized it was pretty late cause D-9 starts at 7 20 pm and we still had to eat dinner. Thankfully we got a ride from his very nice mom to this place to eat dinner and we had some meh ramen at this Japanese place. Then we went and watched the movie, as described above.

And um… when I came home other friend from school messaged me and for some reason I was feeling really irritated at him even though he helped me get an appointment at his orthodontist. It’s just really annoying cause it seems like he only likes girls that are like, nice 24/7 and if you’re sorta in a crappy mood and mean to him a bit he doesn’t wanna talk to you altogether and gives you attitude back. He’s the kind of person that will do anything for girls that flirt shamelessly with him and let him touch them (NOt in that way, just like, patting on the head and that sort of lame boring stuff.). Plus he implied my dad had an annoying accent. Fuck that pissed me off. But he cleared it up in the end and said he didn’t so I guess it’s all good.

Whatever I’m too lazy to write anymore. Haha, bye.

more jetlag

Diana — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 10:16:58 +0000

frick I can’t freaking sleep. I went to bed at 9 30 pm and I woke up like an hour ago. I’m eating chocolate cake now, and I have that damned song ” I have a lovely bunch of coconuts ” stuck in my head. I think I’m going crazy. I couldn’t stop thinking about how much of a anxious person I am. I mean starting from a few years back I (for some reason…) I always get nervous when I talk to teachers one-on-one or adults that aren’t my family members. And the conversations get sort of awkward on my side… Like, I start talking when they’re about to say stuff and I say the wrong things. Like this one time I was asking for this, I dunno, application form is what I guess you would call it? It was for this festival thing, and I was getting it from my planning teacher. And I KEPT saying the wrong colour of the application form, going like, ” Oh could I get that red—I mean blue—” *nervous laughter in between* ” I MEAN WHITE application form for the blahblah festival ? ” Haha and she looked at me like O_o… I don’t know what’s with me these days. Even today when I went to the movies with my long time “best friend” since third grade (and I quote this because I don’t really consider her as my best friend anymore) I felt awkward and nervous when we were talking. In the past we were always had tons of fun and I was never… unable to act like myself around her. Is this what staying home and being on the Internet all day does to you? If it is, I don’t want any part of this Internet, World Wide Web thing. I read an article a long time ago (few months before) about how kids these days are spending too much time on social networking sites and it’s making their real life social skills worse. It said kids are having communication problems or whatever because they’re not going out enough and experiencing real interaction between people their age and etc etc. I can’t help but think I’m one of those people. Honestly I feel worse and worse each day that I waste spending my time on the computer, and by that I mean my self-esteem keeps going lower. I realized when I came home five days ago that my vacation in China did me some good and I was feeling better about myself already within the 1.5 months that I spent there… But I sort of ruined it with my massive sitting-around-going-on-the-internet-and-chatting for the past few days. And now I’m feeling crappy again. What is a girl supposed to do in order to feel more confident about herself? SSSSSSSEEERIOUSLYYYYYYYY!? I lost fricking weight too. Since I got those no-good braces in goddamned China I couldn’t eat the foods I loved in Guiyang and stuff I basically ate less altogether and not to mention when I got back from there too. I haven’t weighed myself but it’s probably along the lines of something like, 94 pounds when I’m hungry. I’m around 5’4”, so that isn’t exactly the healthiest weight ever. My mom doesn’t seem to be too keen on making food that much either. But anyway, less about her. I’m starting this new thing where I’m not going to heavily describe what my parents do/say to me ’cause I’ve talked enough shit about them in the past as it is. Haha, I’m a horrible child.

But yeah. Tomorrow I’m supposed to go to a few places, speak to the manager, and give him/her my resume and hope that they’ll hire me. It’s not that big of a deal… But it’s really nerve-wracking. I’ve never had a real job before nor am I that awesome at speaking to people and making a great impression on them, haha. I remember in grade 5 when my best friend’s (at the time) thought I was a bad influence ’cause I swore a lot. Yes, I was a real potty mouth when I was like, ten and a half. HAHA. I was also probably the third most annoying kid in my school. Is that hard to believe, since I like hardly speak up anymore now in high school?

I just yawned. Maybe I should go back to bed soon. I’ve never had such bad jet lag before in my 17 (almost) years of damned life. MMmmmmmmm… this cake is good. I sort of got sick of it though after I had it for like… 4 times, haha. My mom thinks that if I like to eat something then I’ll like never get sick of it. That only goes for noodles though. Oh gawd nooodles. Ajisen Ramen probably has like, the best ramen I’ve ever tasted. There are probably better ramen places but Ajisen Ramen makes daaaamned good ramen for like, a chain store. Sort of like McDonalds, where they’re a franchise but their stuff is really good when you’re hungry and white and fat. HAHA just kidding, I don’t mean to stereotype, I like McDonalds too… when I don’t have much else of a choice. I was thinking about getting a job there but my mom was like, ” NO THAT’S A TRASH PLACE DON’T WORK THERE THE SALARY IS TOO LOW!!!! “. So I was like, okay. WTF I just searched up Ajisen Ramen and apparently there’s a chain store close to where I live. So THAT was what I went to that one time when I had that crappy ramen a year ago… Wow, that place isn’t as nearly as good as the ones I went to in Shanghai. I’m so tired now. But I wanna eat more… meh, I guess I’ll just go back to sleep. Hopefully I can fall asleep…

the time traveler’s wife…

Diana — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 00:16:58 +0000

Geez am I tired. Since I slept from 11 am to 8 pm yesterday… and since it’s five in the afternoon right now, you can probably imagine how I feel. A mixture of sleepy and dizzy? I guess. But anyway, today I went to the movies and I saw “The Time Traveler’s Wife”. From start to end, it was really good. It’s probably the best chick flick in years, in my opinion. Rachel McAdams is a very talented actress… But she really needs to eat something. At one scene in the movie, she was topless (with a blanket covering her) and you could literally see all the vertebrae in her back as well as her ribcage. What’s wrong with female celebs these days? Even she’s falling into the trap of the whole skinny-as-a-stick-is-beautiful sort of thing. I guess that suits her if you believe she’s anything like Regina from Mean Girls.

On my bus ride back, I saw my friend’s sister get on the same bus. I didn’t say hello to her, but instead I texted my friend and told him that his sister’s on the same bus as me. Is it just me or is it really awkward saying hello to people you barely know and that you’ve only met once or twice? Haha. I have like, communication problems with people.

Tomorrow I’m going to give in my resumes to various places… Hopefully at least one place will hire me.

Too tired to write anymore. Bye.

Good morning. Or good night, if youre on the other half.

Diana — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 11:43:54 +0000

Hi. This is my first post. I don’t really know what to say! I’m filling in an application form at the moment to apply for a job @ Starbucks. Tomorrow I’m going to the movies to watch The Time Traveler’s Wife.. But I’m still having major jet lag. I slept from like, 11 A.M. to 8 P.M. today. Haha. Anyways. I really hope I can get a job at T&T as a cashier. I’m just desperately yearning for experience. Maybe working for a year or two I might seem mature and people might take me more seriously. Even though I’m almost 17, most people that don’t know me think I’m like, 13 or 14 (it’s because I’m Asian), and that just won’t do… Because really, who takes 13 year olds seriously anyway? So yeah… I’m probably not going to fall asleep tonight unless I take some sleeping pills. Damned jetlag. Why do we have to have timezones anyway? I mean. I know it’s cause the earth is round… But why can’t our entire world just have one timezone, it’s a lot more convenient, for everyone. For businessmen… for 17 year olds trying to fix jetlag… for, I dunno, watching world wide events live on television and all that stuff. But yeah. I’m just rambling now, so I’m gonna go. Bye.